I hate myself!

I really hate myself

I hate myself for keep screwing up making silly mistakes

I hate myself for not saying the right words

I hate myself for being so socially awkward

I hate myself when I'm being horribly judgemental

I hate myself for being heavily teary-eyed

I hate myself for always hurting myself a lot

I hate myself for not being the right person

And trust me the list goes on

I just hate myself for hating so much of me.

Ergo, I went for a quest

searching for someone

who would love me more than I could ever love myself

cheer me up through thick and thin

and through that someone

I would eventually learn to love myself.

I looked everywhere high and low

I searched for days and months and years

I almost lose hope for it

Until one day, I found that someone.

It took me a long time to realise that that someone has been there all this while

That someone showed true compassion

Taught me patience and endurance

Calm and gentle to me

And above all showed me love

That someone is Allah.

For He is the only one capable of making me happy

For He is the only one always there to comfort my sorrow

For He is the only one out there always protecting me

For He is the only one capable of healing my wounds

And above all, for He is the One who loves me more than I love myself

Praise be to the Most Merciful for all these blessings

For this life, this family, these friends, this love

There is nothing more I could ask for

His love is sufficient enough

Thank you Allah!

I love you Allah.

I really do.

^_^

~h5~