Sunday, 25 December 2011

a reminder..

nothing in this life will last..
animals will perish..
beautiful flowers will die..
green leaves will wither..
over time nobody will look the same..
as the youth will grow old..
beauty won't lasts forever..
this worldly life is nothing but a deceiving enjoyment..
fear the dunya, don't let it fool us..
and never let the devil fool us about the Lord..
let's not forget the reality of this world..
everything will perish except Allah..
and everyone shall taste death..
let us look towards our actions..
bring ourselves to account before we're brought to account..
and weigh our deeds before our deeds are weighed..
may Allah guide us all insyaAllah..


Tuesday, 29 November 2011

aku ingin mencintaiMu..

Tuhan betapa aku malu
Atas semua yang Kau beri
Padahal diriku terlalu sering membuatMu kecewa
Entah mungkin karna ku terlena
Sementara Engkau beri aku kesempatan berulang kali
Agar aku kembali
Dalam fitrahku sebagai manusia
Untuk menghambakanMU
Betapa tak ada apa-apanya aku dihadapanMU
Aku ingin mencintaiMU setulusnya,

Sebenar-benar aku cinta
Dalam do`a
Dalam ucapan
Dalam setiap langkahku
Aku ingin mendekatiMU selamanya
Sehina apapun diriku
Kuberharap untuk bertemu denganMU ya Rabbi

Monday, 28 November 2011

dear me..

Here are some motivational birthday notes! ^_^

Turn the challenges you face into opportunities, consider the weaknesses you have as a motivation to improve, and polish your strengths into your uniqueness. May you always make your own best way, as you walk through this journey, called life.
Under and behind and inside, everything you ever take for granted, always remember that something horrible is been growing. Never turn a blind eye towards your responsibilities, and you will always walk on the happy lanes of life. May God bless you with faith and courage.
With every passing day, comes a change. A change alone, however, is not good enough because, a change can be either good or bad. Change is an obligation that comes with life, so always make good change. Since, only a good change is called an improvement, the rest is only an illusion of improvement.
I wish you a very happy birthday, and wish to tell you the secret to success on your special day. People achieve only what they deserve, and deserve only what they achieve. Always remember, your success depends on you and you alone. Enjoy your day dear!
On your Birthday, I wish you a year full of success and glory. With faith, courage and dedication, no dream is too big. Keep up with your efforts, staying oblivious to the results and you will certainly get what you desire. I wish you a very Happy Birthday.

Sunday, 27 November 2011

Salaam Ma'al Hijrah

Assalamu'alaikum dear readers! ^_^

I would like to wish everyone a Happy New Hijra year of 1433H.
Hopefully each of us will get the chance to reflect how our past years had gone by and what improvements we could make for the coming years insyaAllah to better ourselves.

Any goals to achieve? Let's do a simple list of them in order to guide us through the year and strive to make it possible. Perhaps we would like to improve our daily amal ibadah to Him through zikrullah and reciting al-qur'an every single day. Also strengthen our bonds with our family and friends, do good to them and spread the love and care to them and other people.

Let's pray together for Allah has given us so many things throughout this beautiful journey of life, as Muslims we've to be grateful for being given the greatest gift or nikmah of all which is eeman and Islam as well as a good life to live on. Let's also pray for Allah to forgive us for our misdeeds and any wrongdoings, and accept whatever little good deeds we do for the sake of Him be it in the past and future.

Indeed, we are nothing in the Hereafter without His acceptance and redha. May this new hijrah year brings better prospects, rizq and all the good things for all of us and the whole Mankind insyaAllah Taala! And should we are beckoned to return to Him, may we return in the best manner possible. Ameen ya Rabb.

Friday, 18 November 2011

hush don't cry


Dear self,
"People cry, not because they’re weak. It’s because they’ve been strong for too long."
Don’t count tears of weakness as crying, it’s just the water leakage of the eyes... 
But tears that come from someone finally being open after remaining strong for far longer than they were supposed to, those tears are truly TEARS. And those tears should be comforted for in them is not weakness, but unbelievable strength!

Apparently, many people have had this kind of feeling. People went through some difficult times and have tried their best to stay strong and not to surrender and give up hopes. However, at one particular moment, all of a sudden, they can't really control themselves anymore. All the stress, sadness, frustrations, worries etc that have been suppressed for months or years suddenly erupt to the surface in a split second. They can't hold their fort of emotions any longer and so tears burst from their eyes.

In our daily life, we will tend to hide our inner stress and unhappiness in our dealings with other people. So, when we look around, at most we will see many expressionless faces, but we rarely see many sorrowful eyes. Let us remember that some of the people around us may be going through a difficult time at home, or even struggling with enormous stress at work or in their studies. We may not be able to offer them any concrete help, but let us take every opportunity to show a little compassion towards others by throwing them some friendly smiles, saying kind words, or patiently listening to their unhappy stories. That's the least we can do to alleviate their sorrows and hopefully will also cheer up our hearts as well.

Even with very small gestures, we can all help to make the world a slightly warmer place to live for everybody. Love and peace for all! ^_^

"We can do no great things; only small things, with great love and care."
Truly yours..

Monday, 31 October 2011

Ya Allah..

Ya Allah, please forgive me for the wrong I've done
Ya Allah, give me another chance to prove that I can pass
Please guide me and protect me along the straight path
And I know that I can make it, one day I'll be in heaven with you

Brother, brother, (let me tell you) you ain't acting cool
Lower your gaze, don't go astray, cuz you're looking like a fool
We all know (human nature) makes us ignorant sometimes
Making us do some things we know just ain't right

What's the moral of the story fellaz?

You better watch your back
Stay on the right track
Don't try to act all wack
Cuz it will all come back to you

And all you can say is

Ya Allah, please forgive me for the wrong I've done
Ya Allah, give me another chance to prove that I can pass
Please guide me and protect me along the straight path
And I know that I can make it, one day I'll be in heaven with you
[ Lyrics from: ]
Sister, don't your dare cry
Cuz girl you know we all fall short sometimes
Dust yourself off, stand tall, don't let it get you down
Open your eyes to Allah, you'll see the beauty of
All the things that are going your way
Hold your head up high, it'll be okay

Allah is merciful, the most forgiving
Pray five times a day, and never stop giving
You gotta keep on Qur'an, keep Iman strong
And one day, insh'Allah, you'll be among the stars

For now you better pray girl

Ya Allah, please forgive me for the wrong I've done
Ya Allah, give me another chance to prove that I can pass
Please guide me and protect me along the straight path
And I know that I can make it, one day I'll be in heaven with you

What's happening brother, I've got a message for you
There's a little something that I need you to do
See, you've been causing problems since you came my way
And I'm not trying to have that, ain't the way I play
I don't need no influence like you in my world
I'm just trying to live my life - simple and pure
You've been avoiding the Iman, don't even make salat
It's time to beg for some forgiveness from ya Allah

Everybody sing it now

Ya Allah, please forgive me for the wrong I've done
Ya Allah, give me another chance to prove that I can pass
Please guide me and protect me along the straight path
And I know that I can make it, one day I'll be in heaven with you

Thursday, 6 October 2011

syukur dan sabar

Assalamu'alaikum duhai sahabat semua

Moga sehat2 selalu di bawah limpahan kaseh sayang Allah Taala insyaAllah. Terlalu banyak anugerah yang Allah berikan untuk kita semua yang hakikatnya hanyalah pinjaman sementara sahaja di dunia yang fana ini. Pancaindera yang sempurna untuk mentadabur alam, kesihatan fizikal dan rohani untuk menjalani kehidupan seharian, rezeki yang baik untuk dinikmati dan dikongsi bersama, makan minum cukup pakai semuanya alhamdulillah dan pelbagai lagi nikmat yang Allah berikan hingga tak terhitung oleh akal manusia. Selalulah bersyukur dengan segala nikmat kurniaanNya yang telah kita semua nikmati, yang sedang kita kecapi dan yang akan kita miliki walau apa jua keadaan kita di masa lampau, sekarang maupun akan datang. 

Hayatilah bait2 puisi hasil cetusan hati yang penuh cinta padaNya, ayuh menyikapi ujian dengan kesabaran dan penuh kesyukuran.

Kiranya diri diuji dengan pelbagai mehnah duniawi 
mahupun dugaan yang dirasakan tidak tertanggung oleh diri, 
percayalah bahwa ia didatangkan khas buat diri 
yang mampu menghadapi segala onak duri (insyaAllah!)

Bersyukurlah dikau masih diuji
tanda Allah masih sayang pada diri
tidak dibiar hanya membuta tuli
Asbab ujian sebagai motivasi
meningkat darjat di mata Ilahi.

Lalu bersangka baiklah dan lunakkan hati
Berdoalah dengan penuh perasaan dan penghayatan 
umpama ia adalah hajat terakhir yang Allah makbulkan
Berdoalah dengan rasa percaya dan yakin pada Yang Esa
Berdoalah dengan penuh rasa keimanan dan ketaqwaan
Menangislah sepuasnya dan mengadulah pada Sang Pencipta
Nescaya Allah berikan nikmat ketenangan dalam jiwa..

insyaAllah Taala! ♥

Hidup itu satu perjuangan, mati suatu kepastian!

Wednesday, 28 September 2011


"No matter what I say to explain and elucidate Love,
shame overcomes me when I come to Love itself.
Love cannot be contained within our speaking or listening;
Love is an ocean whose depths cannot be plumbed.
Would you try to count the drops of the sea?
Before that Ocean, the seven seas are nothing.
Love cannot be found in erudition and science, books and pages.
Whatever is discussed by people - that is not the way of lovers.
Whatever you have said or heard is the shell:
The kernel of Love is a mystery that cannot be divulged.
Enough! How long will you cling to these words of the tongue?
Love has many expositions beyond speech.
Silence! Silence! For the allusions of Love are reversed:
The meanings become hidden from much speaking.
Somone asked, "What is Love?"
I replied, "Ask not about these meanings.
When you become like me, then you will know.
When He calls you, you will recite its tale."
Oh you who have listened to talk of Love, behold Love!
What are words in the ears compared to vision in the eyes?"
This poem was written by Mevlana Rumi, so deep and touching that can't help penetrating the heart. May Allah Almighty granted us His divine love. Only God's love can wash our sorrows off!
"One of the supplications of Prophet David (PBUH) was: 'God, I beg of You Your love, the love of those who love You, and such conduct as should lead me to Your love. God, make Your love dearer to me than my soul and my family, and dearer than cold water.'" (At-Tirmidhi)

Tuesday, 27 September 2011


"Istikhara" means to seek goodness from Allah (Exalted is He), meaning when one intends to do an important task they do istikhara before the task. The one who does the istikhara is as if they request Allah Almighty that, O the Knower of Unseen (Exalted is He) guide me if this task is better for me or not?

According to Bukhari, Volume 2, Book 21, Number 263:
Narrated Jabir bin 'Abdullah : The Prophet (Sallal Laho Alaihi Wasallam) used to teach us the way of doing Istikhara, in all matters as he taught us the Suras of the Quran. He said, "If anyone of you thinks of doing any job he should offer a two Rakat prayer other than the compulsory ones and recite duaa after the prayer.

How to perform istikhara?
First pray Two Cycles (raka') of ritual Prayer (nafil) such that in the first raka' after Surah Fatiha recite Surah al-Kafirun (Chapter 109) and in the second raka' after Fatiha recite Surah al-Ikhlas (Chapter 112). After finishing prayer recite this duaa/supplication:
"O Allah! I seek goodness from Your Knowledge and with Your Power (and Might) I seek strength, and I ask from You Your Great Blessings, because You have the Power and I do not have the power. You Know everything and I do not know, and You have knowledge of the unseen. Oh Allah! If in Your Knowledge this action ------------ (which I intend to do) is better for my religion and faith, for my life and end [death], for here [in this world] and the hereafter then make it destined for me and make it easy for me and then add blessings [baraka'] in it, for me. O Allah! In Your Knowledge if this action is bad for me, bad for my religion and faith, for my life and end [death], for here [in this world] and the hereafter then turn it away from me and turn me away from it and whatever is better for me, ordain [destine] that for me and then make me satisfied with it."

How many times to do istikhara?
It depends really, sometimes it takes only once to get the answer and sometimes it takes longer. It is better to do istakhara seven (7) times. If you have received an answer as explained in the section below, stop doing istikhara. You do not have to continue to do isitkhara for 7 days. It is better that right after reciting the supplication, given above, sleep with ablution (people who cannot keep the ablution for longer times due to health problems do not have to worry about ablution before falling asleep) facing the direction of the Qibla (facing the Qibla is not required but it is a Sunnat of our beloved Prophet Peace Be Upon Him). It is better to recite salutations (durood/ salawat) on the Prophet Allah's Grace and Peace be upon him before and after the above Dua (supplication).

What's the answer?
If in the dream one sees whiteness (means any thing white in color, for example: milk, white paper, white sky, white clothes, white light etc.) or greenness (means any thing green in color, for example: grass, plants, trees, green clothes, green light etc.) then understand that this task is better and if one sees redness (means any thing red in color, for example: blood, red clothing, red fruit, red light etc.) or blackness (means any thing black in color, for example: black water, black light, black clothings, black sky, black wall etc. ) then understand it is bad and avoid it.

If do not remember any dream or do not see any colors then follow your heart. Whatever intention grows stronger in your heart regarding your targated work follow it after seven days of Istikhara.

Friday, 23 September 2011

do it anyway

Between you and God - a poignant wisdom.

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered; Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway.

If you are honest and sincere, people may cheat you; Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will forget tomorrow; Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you've got and it may never be enough; Give your best anyway.

For you see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;

It was never between you and them anyway

This was written by Mother Teresa and is engraved on the wall of her home for children.

Tuesday, 20 September 2011

remember Him

Sometimes Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul
Sometimes He breaks our heart to make us whole
Sometimes Allah allows pain so we can be stronger
Sometimes Allah sends us failure so we can be humble
Sometimes Allah allows illness so we can take better care of ourselves
Sometimes Allah takes everything away from us so we can value everything He gives us
That's why we have to always remember Him..

It is impossible for things to remain the same
The days and years rotate, the future is unseen
and everyday Allah has matters to bring forth
We know it not, but it may be that Allah will
afterwards bring some new things to pass
And verily, with hardship there is a relief
Hence, glad tidings to those who strive for the sake of Allah!
InsyaAllah Taala.

"The greatest reward comes with the greatest trial. When Allah loves a people, He tests them. Whoever accepts that, wins His pleasure but whoever is discontent with that, earns His wrath." (Saheeh al-Tirmidzi)

Abu Hurairah RA reported that the Prophet SAW said; "A strong believer is better and dearer to Allah than a weak believer, and there is good in everyone, but cherish what gives you benefit in the Hereafter and seek help from Allah and do not lose heart, and if anything (in the form of trouble) comes to you, don't simply say: 'If I had not done that, such and such thing wouldn't have happened', but say: 'Allah has ordained it so, and whatever He pleases He does', because 'ifs' and 'buts' open the door for Satan." (Muslim)

Remember Allah always! (",)

Monday, 19 September 2011

Happy Eid!

Assalamu'alaikum to all my dear sisters and brothers.

I'm aware that this is very much overdue but it's better late than never, since it has been quite hectic for me since the last few weeks with the starting of the new academic term, eid celebrations, new juniors coming, home spring clean etc etc.

Alhamdulillah...Ramadhan that has passed has taught me so many lessons. Things that I initially presumed would be difficult turned out to be rather tolerable and Allah has made it easy for me alhamdulillah. For instance, I thought I would barely survive the long hour of fasting during summer time plus with the studies and revision as well as the stress and pressure that I had to cope to sit for exams in mid August. It's not been perfect for I haven't been anywhere near perfect but I'm delighted and motivated to fast and do good things during last Ramadhan. So I must say it has been a great Ramadhan for me this year despite all the unpleasant things happened around me.

I tend to have mixed feelings at the end of Ramadhan, sad that I had to bid adieu Ramadhan..the month full of mercy by Allah, but at the same time happy for the reward to celebrate Eid with family and friends, and had passed the trial month.

Anyways, Happy Eid to all Muslims around the world! ^_^ Don't forget to do the complementary ibadah: fast 6 days in Syawal!

"He who fasts in the month of Ramadhan followed by 6 days in Syawal, it is as if he has fasted for a year." (Hadeeth Muslim)

Saturday, 27 August 2011

the night of power!

The signs by which Laylat al-Qadr is known

The first sign: it was reported in Sahih Muslim from the hadith of Ubayy ibn Ka'b that the Prophet (peace be upon him) announced that one of its signs was that when the sun rose on the following morning, it had no (visible) rays. [Muslim 762]

The second sign: it was reported from the hadith of Ibn 'Abbas narrated by Ibn Khuzaimah, and by al-Tayalisi in his Musnad, with a Sahih isnad, that the Prophet (peace be upon him) said: "Laylat al-Qadr is a pleasant night, neither hot nor cold, and the following day the sun rises red and weak." [Sahih Ibn Khuzaymah, 2912; Musnad al-Tayalisi]

The third sign: it was reported by al-Tabarani with a hasan isnad from the hadith of Wathilah ibn al-Asqa' that the Prophet (peace be upon him) said: "Laylat al-Qadr is a bright night, neither hot nor cold, in which no meteors are seen." [Narrated by al-Tabarani in al-Kabir. See Majma’ al-Zawa’id, 3/179; Musnad Ahmad]

These three Sahih ahadith explain the signs which indicate Laylat al-Qadr.

It is not essential for the one who "catches" Laylat al-Qadr to know that he has "caught" it. The point is to strive hard and to be sincere in worship, whether or not one knows that one has "caught" it. It may be that some of those who do not know that may be better with Allah and higher in status than those who did know which night it was, because the former strove hard.

We ask Allah to accept our fasting and our prayer at night, and to help us to remember Him and to thank Him and to worship Him properly. May Allah bless our Prophet Muhammad.

Monday, 22 August 2011

ramadhan kareem

A test of endurance
A time of patience
controlling emotions, needs and desires
A mean of appreciation
and give thanks for pleasures
A perfect time to engage in introspection
take a closer look at our feelings, thoughts and actions
Giving up bad habits:
smoking, wasting time, oversleeping
And indulge in good habits:
help the needy and give charity
hold iftar for others
dress appropriately
be considerate
respect those who fast
do good unto others
watch our words
read al-Qur'an
pray and make duaa from Allah
to better ourselves insyaAllah..

Let's soak up the spirit of ramadhan! ^_^

may Allah accept all our tawbahs, duaas, fasting and good deeds insyaAllah...
may He surrounds us with light and happiness, and put light into our hearts and every vessel through our body..ameen.

Sunday, 31 July 2011

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

salam alaik dear muslims,

Happy Ramadhan to all of you!:)
May all of us successfully graduate from university of Ramadhan with TAQWA at the end of the month!inshaAllah ameen3!
And dont forget to set your targets for this ramadhan and strive for it because it might be your last Ramadhan. (only Allah knows) so, appreciate it while it is still here!=)

Asif Jiddan if there is any mistakes done by this small abduLLAH directly or indirectly to anyone in this world.
i pray that all of you will be under His blessings in everything you do!
take care!


Tuesday, 12 July 2011

Berjalan Tanpa Henti

Dedikasi khas buat H5..
Jangan pernah putus asa wahai sahabatku kerana Allah sgt menyayangimu!:) <3<3<3<3<3<3

Album : Berjalan Tanpa Henti
Munsyid : Devotees

Bagaikan jauh jalan yang kutempuh
Langkah demi langkah akan kugagah
Hari demi hari berjalan tanpa henti
Yakinku ada sinar yang menentu
Kalau dah bertemu arah
Yakin penuh pasrah
PadaNya Yang Kuasa dikau berserah
Jika kau rebah jika kau kalah
Bersaksilah rahmatNya akan terserlah
Segala kepahitan segala keperitan
Terima bagai penghapus dosa
Malang yang menimpa duka yang melara
Mungkin di baliknya ada bahagia
Jangan jangan berputus asa
Dari rahmat Yang Maha Esa
Jangan jangan kita lupa
Ujian lumrahnya dunia

Monday, 11 July 2011


long for..

Those are the synonyms for HOPE.

Trouble is brewing, but we are convinced it can all turn out well. We believe with all the depths of our being that things will get better. We have hope; and we are doing things to improve our future. We are fearing the worst but expecting the best at the same time. Hope is the antidote to the hopelessness of despair. Hope moves us forward!

What's hope really means?

The possibility that things will get better..
The chance for improvement..
A positive stance on the future..
Anticipation of a future desirable event or outcome..
Pleased about a prospective desirable event..

Beautiful hope

Hope fuels the human spirit
drives us forward,
encourages us to overcome obstacles,
keeps us focused
achieving worthwhile goals.
It encourages wild imaginations
and risk-taking
leading to positive transformations.

Hope is the power
helping people
become more resilient,
prone to overcome
difficulties and problems.
With hope,
be more optimistic today,
with the promise of a better tomorrow.

So what is your hope?

Certainly no one despairs of Allah’s Mercy, except the people who disbelieve. (Qur’an 12: 87)

Friday, 8 July 2011

why me?

People often ask WHY again and again if they have had something unpredictable happen to them which is usually bad or negative and most probably inevitable.

why I'm the chosen one?
why is it me who have to face this?
why must it me who have to do this?
why am I 'lucky' enough to have gone through this?
why me??

We tend to question what God has planned for us especially when something happens that deeply touches us and so we are quick to judge the event as bad or good. We did plan our life but The Best Planner of All has already planned it well before us and everything has been stated in lauh mahfuz. Some always say that maybe there's a light at the end of the tunnel; truly there are other great plans in store for us insyaAllah and so it is worth to diminish this feeling of sadness and losing hope.

O Allah, I have a dream, I like to go through a beautiful journey, yet I do not find anything in my life, all of a sudden, I find this journey is emptiness. In the beginning, when I was first coming here to further my studies, I thought this would be a new beginning of my life, but I find it today is emptiness, as if nothing is enlightening me...O Allah please help me!

So when Allaah Subhaanahu wa Taala , in His Infinite Wisdom, tests us with a situation that we think is difficult or takes away something that in our mind was good for us, we need to remember that perhaps it may not be so. Perhaps if we had continued in our way, it might have been harmful for us and whatever Allah decreed for us is actually better for us, for He is All-Wise and All-Knowing.

“…and it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allaah knows but you do not know.” (Surah Baqarah: 216)

Al-Hasan al-Basri said: “Do not resent the calamities that come and the disasters that occur, for perhaps in something that you dislike will be your salvation, and perhaps in something that you prefer will be your doom.”

And if life has been difficult, worries surround you and calamities after calamities befall you, hear the good news from the Prophet (Sal Allaahu Alaiyhi wa Sallam): “Trials will continue to befall the believing man and woman, with regard to themselves, their children and their wealth, until they meet Allaah with no sin on them.”

“And when someone puts all his trust in Allah, He will be enough for him.” (Surah at-Talaaq:3)

The Prophet (sal Allaahu Alaiyhi wa Sallam) said:

“If you put your trust completely in Allah, He will arrange for your sustenance in the same way as He provides for the birds. They go out in the morning with their stomachs empty and return filled in the evening.” (Tirmidhi-saheeh)

Monday, 4 July 2011

aku muslimah

Aku tidak ingin dipandang cantik oleh lelaki. Biarlah aku hanya cantik dimatamu. Apa gunanya aku menjadi perhatian lelaki andai murka Allah ada di situ.

Apalah gunanya aku menjadi idaman banyak lelaki sedangkan aku hanya bisa menjadi milikmu seorang.

Aku tidak merasa bangga menjadi rebutan lelaki bahkan aku merasa terhina diperlakukan sebegitu seolah-olah aku ini barang yang bisa dimiliki sesuka hati.

Aku juga tidak mau menjadi penyebab kejatuhan seorang lelaki yang dikecewakan lantaran terlalu mengharapkan sesuatu yang tidak dapat aku berikan.

Bagaimana akan ku jawab di hadapan Allah kelak andai ditanya?

Adakah itu sumbanganku kepada manusia selama hidup di muka bumi?

Kalau aku tidak ingin kau memandang perempuan lain, aku dululah yang perlu menundukkan pandanganku.

Aku harus memperbaiki dan menghias peribadiku kerana itulah yang dituntut oleh Allah.

Kalau aku ingin lelaki yang baik menjadi suamiku, aku juga perlu menjadi perempuan yang baik. Bukankah Allah telah menjanjikan perempuan yang baik itu untuk lelaki yang baik?

Tidak kunafikan sebagai remaja, aku memiliki perasaan untuk menyayangi dan disayangi. Namun setiap kali perasaan itu datang, setiap kali itulah akumengingatkan diriku bahwa aku perlu menjaga perasaan itu kerana ia semata-mata untukmu.

Allah telah memuliakan seorang lelaki yang bakal menjadi suamiku untuk menerima hati dan perasaanku yang suci. Bukan hati yang menjadi labuhan lelaki lain. Engkau berhak mendapat kasih yang tulen.

Diriku yang memang lemah ini telah diuji oleh Allah saat seorang lelaki ingin berkenalan denganku. Aku dengan tegas menolak, berbagai macam dalil aku kemukakan, tetapi dia tetap tidak berputus asa.

Aku merasa seolah-olah kehidupanku yang tenang ini telah dirampas dariku. Aku bertanya-tanya adakah aku berada di tebing kebinasaan? Aku beristighfar memohon ampunan-Nya. Aku juga berdoa agar Pemilik Segala Rasa Cinta melindungi diriku dari kejahatan.

Kehadirannya membuatku banyak memikirkan tentang dirimu. Kau kurasakan seolah-olah wujud bersamaku.

Di mana saja aku berada, akal sadarku membuat perhitungan denganmu. Aku tahu lelaki yang menggodaku itu bukan dirimu. Malah aku yakin pada gerak hatiku yang mengatakan lelaki itu bukan teman hidupku kelak.

Aku bukanlah seorang gadis yang cerewet dalam memilih pasangan hidup. Siapalah diriku untuk memilih permata sedangkan aku hanyalah sebutir pasir yang wujud di mana-mana.

Tetapi aku juga punya keinginan seperti wanita yang lain, dilamar lelaki yang bakal memimpinku ke arah tujuan yang satu.

Tidak perlu kau memiliki wajah setampan Nabi Yusuf Alaihisalam, juga hartaseluas perbendaharaan Nabi Sulaiman Alaihisalam, atau kekuasaan seluas kerajaan Nabi Muhammad Shallallahu 'Alaihi Wassalam, yang mampu mendebarkan hati jutaan gadis untuk membuat aku terpikat.

Andainya kaulah jodohku yang tertulis di Lauh Mahfuz, Allah pasti akan menanamkan rasa kasih dalam hatiku juga hatimu. Itu janji Allah.

Akan tetapi, selagi kita tidak diikat dengan ikatan yang sah, selagi itu jangan dibazirkan perasaan itu kerana kita masih tidak mempunyai hak untuk membuat begitu.

Juga jangan melampaui batas yang telah Allah tetapkan. Aku takut perbuatan-perbuatan seperti itu akan memberi kesan yang tidak baik dalam kehidupan kita kelak.

Permintaanku tidak banyak. Cukuplah engkau menyerahkan seluruh dirimu pada mencari redha Illahi.

Aku akan merasa amat bernilai andai dapat menjadi tiang penyangga ataupun sandaran perjuanganmu.

Bahkan aku amat bersyukur pada Illahi kiranya akulah yang ditakdirkan meniup semangat juangmu, mengulurkan tanganku untukmu berpaut sewaktu rebah atau tersungkur di medan yang dijanjikan Allah dengan kemenangan atau syahid itu.

Akan kukeringkan darah dari lukamu dengan tanganku sendiri. Itu impianku. Aku pasti berendam airmata darah, andainya engkau menyerahkan seluruh cintamu kepadaku.

Cukuplah kau mencintai Allah dengan sepenuh hatimu kerana dengan mencintai Allah, kau akan mencintaiku keranaNya.

Cinta itu lebih abadi daripada cinta biasa. Moga cinta itu juga yang akan mempertemukan kita kembali di syurga.

Seorang gadis yang membiarkan dirinya dikerumuni, didekati, diakrabi oleh lelaki yang bukan muhrimnya, cukuplah dengan itu hilang harga dirinya di hadapan Allah. Di hadapan Allah. Di hadapan Allah kelak.

Yang dicari walau bukan putera Raja, biarlah putera Agama.

Yang diimpi, biarlah tak punya rupa, asal sedap dipandang mata.

Yang dinilai, bukan sempurna sifat jasmani, asalkan sihat rohani dan hati.

Yang diharap, bukan jihad pada semangat, asal perjuangannya ada matlamat.

Yang datang, tak perlu rijal yang gemilang, kerana diri ini serikandi dengan silam yang kelam.

Yang dinanti, bukan lamaran dengan permata, cukuplah akad dan janji setia.

Dan yg akan terjadi, andai tak sama dgn kehendak hati, insyaAllah ku redha ketetapan Illahi..

Wahai wanita, ku ingatkan diriku dan dirimu, peliharalah diri dan jagalah kesucian.. semoga redha Allah akan sentiasa mengiringi dan memberkati perjalanan hidup ini.

Insyaallah.. =)